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hormone hell
Well, I saw Dr Long on monday, and he put me on progesterone. Im starting to get blue...even though I know I shouldnt feel that way! Things are slowly coming together. Ive got my living arrangements settled for now. Now I want to focus on planning out a future. In the past my goals where misty and gray.
I am forcing myself to sit down and write out everything. I had a to decide if I wanted my surgery first, or to resolve my debt problems. I soooo want to go full time, and surgery (FFS) will help me greatly in that area...BUT...being in debt isnt helping my situation at all. So, I'm gonna pay off all my debts first. Its my mind (doing whats right..and smart) verses my heart (wanting to go full time).
I am too damn in a hurry! I just feel like ill never have a commited relationship in the zone im in right now! Finding someone decent is hard enough as it is, but adding the trans thing almost makes it impossible. Lesbians dont want a "chick with a dick", Gay guys dont want a "woman", and tranny chasers give me the creeps!Most ive met have one thing on their mind....having gay sex, with an illusion of being hetero....at least thats the dynamic I see. Honestly...I could care less, what parts someone has...as long as they respect and love me. One thing life has taught me is to take others on THEIR merits..and nothing else. I just wish someone else shared this outlook.
I am forcing myself to sit down and write out everything. I had a to decide if I wanted my surgery first, or to resolve my debt problems. I soooo want to go full time, and surgery (FFS) will help me greatly in that area...BUT...being in debt isnt helping my situation at all. So, I'm gonna pay off all my debts first. Its my mind (doing whats right..and smart) verses my heart (wanting to go full time).
I am too damn in a hurry! I just feel like ill never have a commited relationship in the zone im in right now! Finding someone decent is hard enough as it is, but adding the trans thing almost makes it impossible. Lesbians dont want a "chick with a dick", Gay guys dont want a "woman", and tranny chasers give me the creeps!Most ive met have one thing on their mind....having gay sex, with an illusion of being hetero....at least thats the dynamic I see. Honestly...I could care less, what parts someone has...as long as they respect and love me. One thing life has taught me is to take others on THEIR merits..and nothing else. I just wish someone else shared this outlook.
