It's MzMartiPants to you!

Damn! Has it been that long since of posted! Im going to try to post more often. Ive been writing alot, and am finding that gives me an outlet for my lifes frustrations. Right now im getting things set up to move back home. My apartment is a mess! Id show you a pic, but im too embarrassed! It's weird...I feel some life changing things are about to happen...but im not sure what that means! The ex situation is really in a funk...as witnessed in my latest piece...Ex, Lies, and Audiotape. I miss my kids every day. First ex, S. thinks I am a complete fake, and a loser asshole. She has posted on my messageboard, and actually Im glad about it. I hope that at some point in the future I can see all of my kids. Im not very hopeful, but what else do I have besides hope? Not much.

D.- Every day that passes..I know you a little bit less. Dont take that not knowing as not caring. I love you more today than I ever have. I hope you know that someday.

N.-Son, I know your confused, and prolly embarrassed about your Dad. This isnt ever easy. Know that I love you, and miss you. I will always love you, and NEVER judge you.

T.- time passes...and you grow! Its amazing. I hope school is going well for you and that you continue to kick it at school. Greatness is in your future, i feel it.

[Monument] (This blog entry was posted from "Monument." It is a loving testament to my children that I am unable to see due to the transsexualism. )